Post-Migraine with me

Been meaning to get back to it and blog about the post-migraine phase, so I'll do that today, I think. I described the violent course of one of my migraines last time. It is usually like that for me. I am not even sure if I am getting an aura or not. Definitely not the visual kind of aura that is usually described when referring to Classic Migraine, but I do sometimes have an olfactory aura, I think, where I imagine smells. I also have difficulty talking, not slurred speech, but just sitting there and not having the "energy" to talk. Thoughts racing through my mind, but not making it past my lips.

Anyway, either way, the migraine episode itself has formed a regular pattern with me, not a very unique or exotic either. My symptoms form in a wave which includes: an overall body storm with a general feeling of anxiety, sweating, and physical restlessness to the point of having to pace or move my legs somehow (even lying down), bowel spasms including diarrhea and nausea. This all builds up gradually over the course of an hour or so, getting worse and worse, till I finally vomit. Once I do, it's almost like instant relief. The headache subsides, the nausea goes away. My whole body relaxes. I drag myself back into bed, and just zombie out there. It's hard to describe the feeling. I am not even sleepy at first, just feeling this not unpleasant sense of a closure. Paralysis is a word that comes to mind at this point, although it's not a matter of not being able to move. More like not wanting to. It just feels better to stay like that motionless and empty. I just lie there for a while, propped up on some pillows usually, and I often fall asleep, just drowsing into a thoughtless, dreamless, slumber.

There is something very attractive about this phase, actually. Getting to that point is pure hell, but once I’m there, I just don't care about anything anymore. I don't know if this is making sense even. I sure don't want to go through a migraine, nothing is worth the pain and misery, but in the end, when I just lie there or sleep like that, it's something that I can't usually achieve any other way, and it is rewarding.